I am in love with the idea of love.

I am expert in elbow kisses, behind-the-knee kisses, all the places other people’s eyes forget to look. I will love the dirt smudges that never wash off in the shower, child’s-pose to them on hardwood floors until my legs go numb. You will crimson, embarrassed, step away, and I will let you. From across the room, I will tell you that you are perfect. You do not have to believe me. I know what truths are.
On our first date, you will find out my favorite organs are the lungs. I will want to hold you the way my lungs hold air. When you come to my bed for the first time, I will.
Every night, I will whisper I love you over your lips to see what it feels like coming from your mouth. When your tongue finally stutters over the l, I will help you finish the sentence. I will empty the dishwasher. I will recycle bottles. I will surprise you with a load of finished laundry, and you may find that your favorite t-shirt has shrunk. We will fight. We will never go to bed angry.
My qualifications are limited. I am no expert in love. I have searched for you in all the wrong places, but dark alleys make sunlight dazzling. This desire will not be fleeting. I can tell, even from the start.


- Someone wrote that and this is my response to it.

Im an expert hand holder, my hands are small so they fit perfectly in between yours. it feels right and it feels equal to hold someones hand, equal, thats the best part, no one can be holding it more then the other person, maybe squeezing it or squeezing it less but i mean holding. 
I am easily attached because i crave love and i crave the attention of the one i love. Yes i may be clingy but its only to remind you of how special you are and how perfect i think you are, you'll never believe me entirely and a part wil never want you to because i believe once you are completely aware of how much you mean to me or how powerful your existence is on my life- it means that you can walk away and you'll have more control over me then i could ever, it means I've given you that control. 
I will get butterflies regardless of how many times i tell you i love you because it will be truthful, i won't "over use it" like I've been told before. It will be truth, from my soul. I want to be held but more importantly i want to be held so that inpart- i can be holding you. I will kiss you when you need it most and at the right place, when head is thinking too hard, when your ears have heard too much, your heart is hurt,  when your speaking words that you don't mean, i will kiss you. And i will love kissing you over and over. I will let you into my space, my head my world. 
this line is my favourite- My qualifications are limited. I am no expert in love. I have searched for you in all the wrong places, but dark alleys make sunlight dazzling. This desire will not be fleeting. I can tell, even from the start.
I may not be ready for love just yet but I am capable of feeling it, giving it, holding it, just not ready to accept it, accept it from the right places, from you, from whoever you are. 
Talking about Sex + First times with Tavi Gevinsons:


The first time you realize that no matter what you think of your own naked body or however much you might want to change or shrink or expand bits of it, the person who’s lucky enough to have sex with you is just enormously grateful to be there and thinks you’re the biggest turn-on in the world. (This is always, always true.)
ps.  I need you

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one day

ridiculously interesting article

my beautiful boy- 1 out of 3

love the articles

getting back into drawing


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king breakfast 
best job in the world 
cuggly

beauty

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My best friend drew this
( this one isn't his but there exactly the same)
FUCKING LOVE PUPPIES
                                     
                                                    Bathing has become my new heaven + boyfriend







Two years ago I wrote this post.

See that girlYeah, she’s the one who stuck up for you, the one who stayed up til’ midnight just to talk to you. She’s the one whose heart flutters when she gets a call or text from you, the one who says Good morning every time she gets the opportunity, and the one who prays she’ll get a chance to say Goodnight. Boy, she’s the one who fought for you, the one that missed you and loved you. But by the time you realize that She’s the girl you want, she’ll already be with the guy who figured it out.

so weird huh?