keep holding on

ive never written about you because theres never ever been any words, any phrases anything to explain how i feel. Words, cant explain it, they try but they fail. The fact that i know your reading this, whether it the moment im writing this- despite history exam tomorrow or in a week a month. The fact that your reading this right now makes my hands stop typing as my heart starts pounding and i can hear your thoughts. Yeah, i can hear them.

Its the strength, the connection, that bond and that deep heartaching love that explains it.

that loss of breath everytime your name comes up in a green bubble on my phone.

or when i wake up in the morning, before my eyes even fully open i grab my phone and check my facebook to see if youve commented on anything, my heart beats rapidly even at 7.20 am.

I can still feel us holding hands smiling at eachother.

No, there arent enough ways to recapture those memories.

But although they are memories, its not only something playing over and over in my mind like a movie its a strong belief that were still together and this isnt over.

i know i always tell you i love you and how strong you are and i know deep down you want to believe me and throughout time ive made you believe me. But its not the words you believe, its those memories and those feelings that grab your heart and say "yeah, she does love me and i am strong"

When i say i will always be there, it may not mean physically but fuck does it mean emotionally. And you, out of all people on this pathetic excuse of a planet know that I mean that.

I cant say your my world because a matter of fact "this world, cant mean that much to me"

i cant realllly say your my life, because well that doesnt mean that much to me either.

Its just you and your power over me that means that much to me.

Im sorry i cant prove it through words, i truly hope that the memories we have wont fade and youll never stop rememebering that its not the words that prove it but infact, those feelings you have deep inside you.

Ill. Always. Be. Here. Show all

It may not be physically but look at your heart and im right there.