it's finally hit me
that this is not just for me
and that ANYONE.ANYWHERE. can read, my thoughts
It gives me a rush of adrenaline to know that you are reading this.
I am strange
I know I think differently, to you, at times I will have dark thoughts
at times I will have surging joy through my body and at times im a bit numb.
but theres something I do know and that is that I am human.
Im surviving and getting through
I go to sleep and I try to get the negativity to escape and try and just smile before I fall asleep.
This helps me to know that when I wake up I will smile. I only wish I could show you how I survive, this is the closest I have to doing that.
So for now, while im buzzing with excitement and fear about knowing that you are reading this, that you care about what goes on in my head.
I say
smile. right now, even if you feel stupid, even if your crying or something so terrible has just happened. Move your lips and smile...
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